Productivity

     I like to think of myself as having several positive qualities that I am truly pleased to claim as my own, procrastination is not one of them. I have had this habit, like so many others, of putting things off until the last possible moment. This week is a key example. Not only have I waited until the week before my sister's baby shower to finalize all the decorations, food menus, games and respective prizes, and all the other extraneous details that come with hosting a baby shower, but I have also made it a week for many other last minute duties. I leave this Sunday to go back to Nacogdoches and I still have yet to finish any of my officer duties and reports for my honors organization and on top of that I have yet to finish making my best friends baby shower invitations that must be sent out before I leave town. If that isn't bad enough I still have everyday chores to do like laundry, packing up my months worth of spread out mess at both my parents and boyfriends house and find time to do whatever remaining errands that are necessary before returning to my cozy apartment 3 hours from here.
     However, amidst all this hustle and bustle that is my procrastinations sweet punishment, I am remembering why I loved being so busy with school. One thing I have learned about myself over these last few years is that when I'm busy, I don't have much time to dwell on my thoughts or worries. You see everyone thinks I'm crazy, that I overload myself with too many organizations, a job, a full load of classes, and a major that fills my time with projects and constant assignments, but the truth is that I think its healthy for me in my own weird way. Instead of working out, dancing, hanging out with friends, or playing sports, I fill my time with chores, errands, homework, and whatever other innumerable tasks I can fill my day up with to keep my mind and soul in shape. Odd or not, I think that staying busy is my own personal way of stress relief.
     Then again, you could say that it is also detrimental to my mental and emotional health because instead of facing my issues head on, I chose to hide behind my daily routine of go, go, go. In fact, I might even have a hard time arguing that fact with you. Maybe that is why when I come home over these long breaks like Christmas and summer I don't know what to do with this sudden onset of emotions that I'm not used to having to face. Either way though, whether I'm avoiding them or secretly soothing them in some weird way I know for sure I need to find a productive outlet for my emotions and stresses. Since I can no longer dance, due to an injury I occurred in high school, this is my next best shot. So 3 posts in and I'm feeling better already, lets see where I am in a month. February 11, 2011 I will look back to where I am today and hopefully will see a few steps of improvement and then we'll take it a few more steps, a few more after that and on until I've finally mastered this puzzle of my emotions. :)